Keep Going

Well things are going ok.   Im a bit down today, but it was an emotional weekend. I basically broke up with all 3 of my girl "friends".    Becky I just like her too much as a person to keep leading her on. That wasnt my intention, but she seems to like me more than I like her, and I dont want to break her heart.  So I broke it off. Terri, well Terri is just plain crazy.  I like her a lot; mostly because she is a wild child, and she is sooo much fun to be with.  But she has so many deep issues, that I cant even begin to deal with.  I told her not to call me or txt me anymore; I just cant deal with the bullshit. Kathleen.  Well Kathleen is everything I would ever want in a woman.  Smart, great career, funny, loving.  She is very very pretty.   So whats the rub?  Well I met her on friday for the first time and she is very large.  Id say obese almost.  I know thats a terrible reason to not like someone, especially someone so special.  But I have to be at least a little bit physically attracted to a new mate.  Im just not with her.. Sucks too, because she is awesome.   I havent told her yet that im not interested, its gonna be tough.  I will probably do it tonight or tomorrow.    So thats that.  3 possibilities and no outcome worth talking about. Im back to square one. Which is ok.    On the flip side I went to see a band on saturday with my brother, and 2 ladies pulled me onto the dance floor, and at the end of the night asked for my #.   One of them was a very attractive blonde who is a teacher.  I will probably call her tonight to see if she is interested in getting to know me better. Im really not looking forward to being alone every night this week (when I dont have the boys); but I suppose I will make it through. I just wish I could start my new job title already and start making some decent money.  The money im making in training sucks so bad.  At least im working I suppose.