just writing
I don't really have much to say tonight, but it's nice to write things down. I ate all three meals today, which was good, and I didn't eat too much. I'm feeling pretty good at this moment.
Put a little more thought into the what may or may not have been something bad. I think things line up pretty well to where I started trying to lose weight around the time I found out who I had actually been talking to. I don't know if it changes anything, I still need to fix my ED.
I didn't talk to my ex today, we usually talk everyday. I think one of her new friends told her to 'reanalyze' her life and find out if I'm really necessary to be in it. Either she'll want me in it or she won't, I don't have a say, there's nothing I can change about myself that can make things better or worse in her eyes.
Put a little more thought into the what may or may not have been something bad. I think things line up pretty well to where I started trying to lose weight around the time I found out who I had actually been talking to. I don't know if it changes anything, I still need to fix my ED.
I didn't talk to my ex today, we usually talk everyday. I think one of her new friends told her to 'reanalyze' her life and find out if I'm really necessary to be in it. Either she'll want me in it or she won't, I don't have a say, there's nothing I can change about myself that can make things better or worse in her eyes.
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wow, totally forgot to write about my dream. I normally wouldn\'t because i don\'t find it necessary to think about my dreams much, but this one was abnormally real. I haven\'t had any problems with panic attacks in about six months now, but last night in my dream I was getting pressed into a crowded spot, and I started to panic, I just remember falling back and not being able to move any of my muscles and not being able to breathe for what felt like forever. In the dream, I didn\'t get that feeling like I was dying, but I definitely woke up in shock trying to breathe again. very scary :S