just words
I am here writing things down because everyday is such a challenge. Today, I spent time with Mom bird watching. Then I grilled out hot dogs for lunch.Hung out reading but she talked most of the way. Is frustrated about my sister. Same ole thing there.
It is tiring for me. I have feelings inside that are from my old self...not the new improved me that keeps my life balanced well. I hate my old ways. I wasnt sober, could not count on a decent thought. Needed therapy. Until I got it just was a tangent seeker. 16 years later am proud of myself and happy to be away from a type of thinking that is destructive.
Where we grow up shapes our thinking. But it does not have to stay that way.
I am a product of such change and never thought It would be compromised.
Now that said this, I see why there has been so much frustration.
It is tiring for me. I have feelings inside that are from my old self...not the new improved me that keeps my life balanced well. I hate my old ways. I wasnt sober, could not count on a decent thought. Needed therapy. Until I got it just was a tangent seeker. 16 years later am proud of myself and happy to be away from a type of thinking that is destructive.
Where we grow up shapes our thinking. But it does not have to stay that way.
I am a product of such change and never thought It would be compromised.
Now that said this, I see why there has been so much frustration.
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