Just want to start feeling better

Since the death of my daughter I have been feeling at lost with myself. I feel like a piece of me went with her when she died. I can't seem to get get back the zest I once had for life. I just feel what's it all for anyway. It is just a chore to even do the things that I use to enjoy. I don't want to be medicated. When I first learned of her death I was taking xanax to get me through the hard time with the arranagements and all. Now I don't take anything. She has been dead for 2 years now and it seems like it happen just last week. Some days are better than others. I have joined supports groups in the past on the internet but seems like few people reply back to you, like they have their set of friends and they don't let you in on their circle so I got no support from them at all.