JUST WANT TO GO BACK TO BED.....

WELL,I HAVE ONLY HAD A FEW HOURS SLEEP,I AM FREEZING AND WOULD LOVE TO GO BACK TO BED AND LET THE WHOLE DAY PASS ME BY........WE ARE OUT OF PROPANE AGAIN.IT COSTS EIGHT HUNDRED DOLLARS EVERY THEE AND A HALF WEEKS,THANK GOD FOR HEAP....AT THAT COST I COULD BE A CEO FOR A MAJOR COMPANY AND STILL NOT AFFORD IT.WE HAVE A WOODSTOVE FINALLY BUT ITS BEEN A BIG FAMILY ARGUEMENT WHOSE TURN IT IS TO TEND TO IT.,BESIDES IT TAKES FOREVER TO HEAT THIS BIG OLD HOUSE........I AM UP SO EARLY TO GET TO THE BANK AND DEPOSIT MONEY BEFORE ALL THE CHECKS I HAVE BEEN WRITING BOUNCE.I AM GETTING BAD.NO FOOD-WRITE A CHECK.NO HOUSEHOLD ITEMS-WRITE A CHECK.NO ELECTRIC-WRITE A CHECK.I JUST WISH I COULD PAY FOR SUCH SIMPLE NECCESSITIES WITH ACUAL MONEY AND NOT A RUBBER CHECK,HOPEING I CAN COVER IT BEFORE BEING SENT TO JAIL.I HAVE A MEETING TODAY WITH MY OLDEST SONS SCHOOL TO SEE IF HE IS GONNA GRADUATE THIS YEAR.I AM HOPEFUL BUT NOT VERY OPTOMISTIC.HE ABSOLUTELY HATES SCHOOL AND HAS MISSED SO MANY DAYS I AM AFRAID I ALREADY KNOW THE ANSWER WITHOUT GOING.I  HATE GOING TO THE SCHOOL,EVERYONE ACTS LIKE THEY ARE BETTER THAN YOU NO WONDER HE HATES IT THERE.BUT EVERYDAY I TRY TO CONVINCE HIM HOW IMPORTANT IT IS TO GRADUATE......I SEEM TO HAVE SUCH A HARD TIME WITH APPOINTMENTS I HATE HAVING TO BE SOMEWHERE AT A CERTAIN TIME,I SHOULD BE GOING TO DOCTORS APPOINTMENTS BUT EVEN IF I MAKE THE APPTS. I END UP CALLING TO CANCEL.WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME ????? I JUST WANT TO STAY LOCKED IN MY ROOM.......SATURDAY I HAD FIFTY DOLLARS IN MY POCKETBOOK AND ALL MY FAMILY WAS ACUALLY HOME FOR A CHANGE AND WANTED TO DO SOMETHING TOGETHER.I WANTED SO BAD TO GO SHOPPING AND OUT TO EAT AT A NICE RESTAURNT LIKE WE USED TO ,BUT SIX OF US AND FIFTY DOLLARS WASNT MUCH.WE WENT DREAM SHOPPING AND ENDED UP EATING AT BURGER KING JUST MAKING IT ,FORTY FOUR DOLLARS FOR A CRAPPY MEAL. I WAS JUST HAPPY TO FEEL LIKE A FAMILY AGAIN EVEN IF FOR A COUPLE OF HOURS.YOU SEE MY KIDS ARE EIGHT,ELEVEN,FIFTEEN AND EIGHTEEN AND USUALLY ARE AT THIER FRIENDS HOUSES OR DONT FEEL LIKE GOING ANYWHERE IF MOM CANT BUY THEM SOMETHING.HUBBY,IS USUALLY OFF PLAYING WITH HIS FRIENDS SO SATURDAY WAS LONG OVER DUE.IT WAS NICE WHILE IT LASTED BECAUSE AS SOON AS WE GOT BACK HOME EVERYONE STARTED ARGUEING AGAIN.....WHAT A WONDERFUL LIFE.........SOMETIMES I WISH MY FAMILY COULD BE IN JIMMY STUARTS SHOES FROM THE MOVIE ITS A WONDERFUL LIFE SO THEY COULD LEARN TO APPRECIATE EACH OTHER AND BE HAPPY THAT THEY EVEN HAVE A FAMILY.WELL, I BETTER GET MOVING OR I WILL NEVER GET ANYTHING DONE.GOOD BY FOR NOW.........