Just want to forget this ever happen
I sit around thinking when I don't have anything else to do and things keeps going through my mind. I feel quilty when I don't think of Khristy or if I am actually experience some kind of happiness. I just wish all all of this would go away. Then I try to think none of this happen, she is alive and living a good life here on earth, then reality hits and I know she is gone forever here on earth and I will not get to see her until I died. What a bummer to have to live through this....My second husband after he sobered up(was a alcoholic for most of his life) anyway decided he had the calling of a preacher so we open up a church and did that for awhile. It wasn't a big church it was mostly for the poor people in town. The reason I brought this up is, after our divorce(which I thought was a friendly one) I found out what all the christain people I knew where really like.....I am not saying all christain people are like this but just the ones I hae come in contact with in my life. Even the preacher where my mom had went to church for most of her life and I have went to church there plus my kids went to the christain school there at times. Just really didn't give the sympathy that I thought they would. The preacher I was talking about was going to Isreal and couldn't do the service which I understood but was suppose to get in contact with me at my brothers house when he came back. Nothing not even a phone call...My ex husband which was Khristy step father for 18 years didn't bother coming to the funeral. So I don't guess it was as friendly divorce as I thought. His family didn't even send me a card. Which they managed to send one to my Mom... This had ended up in a venting post....My mind just wonders from one thing to another. Well that kind of treatment just turned me away from religion. Not from God, but from some people that claim to be christain and act completely different that what they have been preaching. If one of my ex's daughters died if I couldn't get to the funeral I would at least send him a card just to let him know that I have compassion on the situation.... Well the step daugthers that I raised came and that is a positive .....
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Venting helps a lot. Sometimes you just need to get it off your chest before you explode. My mom sent me an email once that said (now hope you wont be affended) Ladies don\'t fart, Ladies don\'t burp if they didn\'t bitch they would explode. LOL {{{{Hugs}}}} Carolyn
Yes your right I think I would explode if I didn\'t bitch about something that was bugging me... Thanks for bringing that to mind...Hugs back Cindy