just talked on to my therapist on the phone

just talked to my therapist on the phone. she's SO cool.

I can get really caught up in the minutiae/details of what I am

experiencing - and it can freak me out when things seem too swirling

- and that gets me worked up.

With my work with her and my work here with you guys is that I am trying become 

more proactive/effective at dealing with my day to day. Deep breath

and sigh - I am getting to be more habituated to walking or posting or exercising

as a way to ground myself. Just went for a walk and on the way back

my therapist called. She's totally positive and affirming...SO great!

For the moment, I feel really lucky and calm.  I look back at what I worried

about earlier today and think "why??" but it does make sense even so.

I'm not the master of my solitude and that's telling me - like arfie said her feelings

are becoming like a warning system - to organize myself to provide for whatever it is

that I need. I buy groceries, I buy gas for my car, time to continue cultivating those

things I need in my life!! :) talk soon, M