Just stop already.
I've tried to write three different journal entries since the last one. Each time, when I was finished and tried to submit it, the website didn't respond, and in recovering the website, I lost the entry.
So I'll [try to] make this one short (but it won't be sweet):
We're leaving for the east coast in a few days. I haven't seen my aunts and uncle for 6 years, and I'm so very happy.
The other night I got on DS and sent some support to another lady here, and the next morning I woke up, and I needed the support. That was 3 days ago, and it's been on and off.
I'm fighting the morning fight again. I PRAY that this is fast and fleeting; the last thing I want is to spend most -or ANY- of our visit being menopausal. My aunt has her 8-yr-old grandson with her for the summer, and I don't want his first impression of me as a weepy, wailing, shaking, nutjob.
I want to be STABLE, DAMMIT. I can take the physical stuff, but I don't want to be sad and depressed, and I sure as hell do NOT want to be anxious, paranoid, and whacked out.
I need to go. As I said, I spent 30 minutes writing something here that got lost, so I'm going to try as hard as I can to make this day go well. I'll settle for ok.
I want to be happy, and I want you to be happy, too.
So I'll [try to] make this one short (but it won't be sweet):
We're leaving for the east coast in a few days. I haven't seen my aunts and uncle for 6 years, and I'm so very happy.
The other night I got on DS and sent some support to another lady here, and the next morning I woke up, and I needed the support. That was 3 days ago, and it's been on and off.
I'm fighting the morning fight again. I PRAY that this is fast and fleeting; the last thing I want is to spend most -or ANY- of our visit being menopausal. My aunt has her 8-yr-old grandson with her for the summer, and I don't want his first impression of me as a weepy, wailing, shaking, nutjob.
I want to be STABLE, DAMMIT. I can take the physical stuff, but I don't want to be sad and depressed, and I sure as hell do NOT want to be anxious, paranoid, and whacked out.
I need to go. As I said, I spent 30 minutes writing something here that got lost, so I'm going to try as hard as I can to make this day go well. I'll settle for ok.
I want to be happy, and I want you to be happy, too.
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It\'s good to hear you are going to keep fighting. It does seem endless at times. I was \"insane\" over the weekend with the hormones. This month it was mostly bitchiness.
You are persistent.