Just relaxing.

  Didn`t really do much today, except go on the computer, and have a mid day sleep. Feel so good the past couple of days. i really think that something very good is going to happen with work, and Jordie. Just a matter of time. we discussed a lot of things during the two days I was with him. He`s a very good person. The kind you rarely meet in a life time. We talked about me getting of welfare. That would be so cool. All I need for that is a three day work week. it`s been so long that I have been able to work at something regular. It`s been tough, but looking back, I have learned to do a lot of things because of it. Life is really funny at times. We hate like hell when things get rough, but in hindsight there is always some good in the experiances we go through, but at the time when we can see nothing at all it can seem like the end of the world. I feel very thankfull to God for all he has given me, taught me, and just being in my life. I remember my younger years when I lived in complete chaos. The times when I was with my wife. I am very sorry that she`s no longer with us, and that I will never get the chance to say I`m sorry for the way I was then. I just didn`t know a lot back then, and it is what it is now. There is nothing I can do to change the past, but I also know I`m no longer that same person, and I would nevetr want to live that way again. One day I`m sure I will see my children again, and hopefully have the oportunity to say I`m sorry, but in the mean time I want to start putting my life back together. so many things that i would like to change about the past, but I know I can only do what I can for today. Thank you so much, Lord. Thank you.