Just not right

I have been feeling weird. I'm actually embarrassed to talk about it but I am looking for some oppinions.Well, i have been battling with the "weirdness' for probably 10 years or so. The doc said that I have an anxiety/panick disorder (three years ago) and a number of other "things" that i want to beleive but something tells me not to.More times than not, I struggle with my memory, LOL, yeah, I know, but I can't remember most of my day. And, a few times a week, I get disoriented for hours, lost, scared, tingly and some times my legs or arms don't have much feeling in them or they are wobbly. I am always tired and sometimes I get so tired that i can't see straight, literally and I can't really grasp what is going on around me. Some times i get dizzy and faint feeling, my heart rate goes up and my sence of touch is numb. I also have shakes in my arms and hands when i feel weird.I take medication but only at night. I actually take less medication than I use to, I'm down to ativan which i have to take. I take half of what is prescribed and have been fine with that when i haven't had these problems, like, on a good day. on a bad day, I take a half a pill when my problems happen (the physical stuff) because I've been told in the past by my ex psychiatrist that it's anxiety. That helps but the feelings are still there minus the anxiety.If I have an intense case of panick disorder, I'll deal with that, but I have had these issues off and on for years. they do get worse with stress but they are there some times without stress.I had a head injury 10 years ago. I also have a cist on my pineal gland (a gland that is somewhere in the front of the brain, it produces melotonin) but the docs said that it was so small that it shouldn't cause any thing. That was 10 years ago when I had it checked last.I am going to my family doc friday but I don't want to come in there acting like a hypochondriac, seriously. I just can't do this any more though.  it seems to be getting worse and more frequent now. Today was REALLY bad.K, there's my weird little jouranl entry!LOL. Any input would be great.