Just Need To Turn Tears Into Words Today

I get this is a silly thing to be upset about.  But that doesn't make me less upset.
Today is Mothers Day.  I've been a mum for four of them now.  Not once has a single thing happened to acknowledge that.  Joey thinks Mothers and Fathers day are stupid holidays and refuses to acknowledge them.
I don't want flowers, I don't want a gift, I don't want a foot massage and breakfast in bed.  I'd like a thank you, and the chance to sleep in.  Maybe even, if I'm really lucky, a meal cooked for me AND cleaned up after.  But what do I get?  I have to get up with Marlow....on a day he is meant to get up anyways (I get up with her on Sat and he sleeps in and he is meant to get up with her on Sun so I can sleep in)...its been almost a month since I got to sleep in last.  I have to make breakfast, and clean it up.  I have to do the dogs morning care routine.  I have to clean up his mess from last night.  I have a day that is the exact same as any other day.
And you know what I'm going to hear all day?  'This holiday is stupid.' 'what a waste of my time' 'what a pathetic excuse for celebration'.  Is it that hard to sincerley say thank you?? Or to take fifteen minutes out of your day to help our daughter make me a card?  Marlow is growing up thinking that Mothers Day is no big deal and not important. 
It makes me feel that I'm not important.  That what I do is stupid, a waste of time and a pathetic excuse for existence.  I get no recognition...ever.  I hate Facebook because there are a ton of posts of cute little kid made presents, flowers, gushes about how they get to go out for a girls day and are promised to come home to a clean house.
Ya, you know what, fuck you Mothers Day.  It's the one day a year I get to feel extra stupid and taken advantage of.  Thanks for that.

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dkbraymond
dkbraymond

Sweetie I\'m sorry you\'re feeling that way and that Joey is treating you so crappy! You deserve better. Have you told any of this to Joey? Sorry I haven\'t been on here for a while because I don\'t like DS anymore. I feel sad and angry because I\'m estranged from my abusive mother, whom I refer to as my egg donor because she doesn\'t deserve to be called my mother. It also really doesn\'t help that my mother in law died this year so, needless to say, I\'m feeling angry and bitter this particular year! I decided to just stay off of Facebook for the rest of the day since some of the posts I saw were upsetting me. I may suggest you stay off of Facebook today. I think Joey is being a royal jerk to you and you deserve better. Is it possible to sit down with Marlow and teach her to make cards and stuff if Joey isn\'t? Anyways, big hugs to you.
theletter12
theletter12

I\'m sorry that he doesn\'t do something special for you. Did he have a bad relationship with his own mother? Sounds like he has some problem with mothers... maybe you could buy yourself something you\'ve wanted for awhile... even if it is small. I know I LOVE getting Frappe\'s at McDonalds - yeah my BIG special treat - haha... but sooo good.... and any little thing to keep me happy... or maybe just you two girls could start doing something together for the day... go eat somewhere... go plant a flower... I\'m sorry you were not treated better... you deserve a day - or at least the thank you!