Just maybe

                 I've tried it before, making goals, keeping tack of things to try and keep track of time and feel like I have purpose but it never worked. An old adage says if at first you don't succeed try, try again. When it comes to me it seems more to be if at first you don't succeed, be chastised for not trying it over and over with no limit despite countless occurrences of failing. Certain people gave up on me because despite trying what they had told me, and failing, and trying it many times more, and it failing more and exhausting me I refused to keep trying and fighting against logic and evidence that  I'd fail. But even so, lets try goal again. Writing always feels good but I find inspiration so hard to come by. Perhaps that can be in and of itself a type of inspiration. Challenge is the root of motivation, so I should put my natural challenges to use, eh?
                  Right now I'm trying to write one page a day for a week. Praying for luck