just managing, as usual...

I'm hanging out here at home. My energy is pushing me forward to keep managing


all the little things I am supposed to take care of. If I don't keep myself engaged


that energy turns in on me - I wrote the following notes to try and give myself a sense


of understanding about things and that in turn gives me a sense of ownership and


partnership with myself rather than just a victim of it all:



we all have to manage our natures of wanting to run free like horses


and also then manage the side of ourselves that's about pragmatics

and taking care of ourselves practically.

 

perhaps I want to hang with people that have the similar searches for freedom

and also the drive for taking care of themselves...at the same time.

 

I am stuck, or I feel stuck, in the drive to take care of things - that's where the freight train of energy I have

pushes me - if I don't consider THAT I tend to break myself apart - and get tormented and sad.

 

I'll take out the garbage. I don't know why I need to 'perfect myself' and things all the time. Perhaps

it's time to accept my fallibility and uniqueness too and maybe the mellowness and imperfectness and humility

that all brings... Keep on keeping on.. peace!


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mlr0853
mlr0853

Beautiful Mark....thinking for the past 5 years, I've not been taking care of the ''little things''. Now that I am, I feel alive and a desire to move. For me, I'm not perfect, and don't expect perfection, simply...I'm just human~~ hope you have a Wonderful Day Mark...Best To You, ml
arfie
arfie

There's cracks
There's cracks
In everything.
That's how
The light gets in ~Leonard Cohen

Take care of the little things and the big things are already tended. ~La Arfita
malibumark
malibumark

thanks guys!!!