Just get out...

I'm so tired of all this. Of course, he had another story about why he couldn't get his keys to his new apartment on Friday and start moving--aparently his apartment, which he said was ready, suddenly isn't ready.... I just want him out of my house and I probably sound stupid because I'm sure I could try being really, really mean but it doesn't seem like anything helps. He just doesn't listen. He used to have pride in himself and wouldn't take a handout from anyone. Now, he still hasn't paid me back all the money he owes me and he won't get out of my house. I just want to be over all of this; I want to be over him. I feel like him sticking around when I don't want him here at least helps the transition a little easier, because he's making me want him out SO badly. I just want a normal relationship, with a nomal guy who is nice to me. I wonder how I have stayed in this relationship for so long considering what it's like and the way that he treats me. It makes me feel ridiculous. At least I'm finally starting to see the reality of things now... I feel like I've been living in a vaccum where I just lost all perspective on the way things are and the way that they should be. Now I'm beginning to remember what my relationships used to be like and what I used to require of the people that I was with. I know taht God has a plan for using all of this for the good. I'm so thankful to know that God is watching over me and so incredibly capable of turning any of my messes into something good...