just fucking super

Something has seriously happened with my moods. They are completedly wacked now.
I have been looking for dates and such to go and visit my sister. My dad said I was getting money back from my tiecket that I had to cancel that i had purchased to fly home from dropping my sister off at school which never happened because i went into the hospital. 
I just found a date that works and was looking for a ticket when my dad told me that I did not get any money back from it.
I broke down in tears. I want to visit my sister so badly in Georgia, as well as visit my Oma and Opa. I have no money. I am literally BROKE. Nothing. Can't even pay my rent right now. I am so fucked. I don't know what the fuck to do.
All I can do is sit here and cry right now.