Just don't care
Life stinks
Didn't get to see my son for Halloween... Complications. Just don't care anymore. Love my son more than anything in this universe. But there will always be 'complications' out of anyone's control for the best for him. Don't even like talking about my son on a public platform really but wanted to get it out. There's nothing that can be said about this. It really has to be this way for his sake.
Life just keeps getting worse, don't wake in hopes of it getting better, just that it doesn't get any worse... But it does... Oh well, we all hurt.
Now stress at work, a simple all of a question got misheard, misinterpreted and the a**hole just goes off on me. BIG yelling match, he's got his problems also and we eventually cooled down and 'worked' it out... But now I'm fuming, my participation in the argument was to toss up a hand and walk away. His was to start yelling and call me out, really cutting deep and that brought A BIG reaction back from me. There was no need for him to go where he went and now I'm really despising him... No care of his worries it problems anymore. Works work... Who cares, just let me do my job and go home... Get away from ignorant a**holes.
Found out I have gout, I thought kidney stones were painful... Wow... Waiting for the next hurt, the next pain. Hurting right now, went to the insta care, they have me 10 pills to cure it, went away and now is coming back, just never ends does it lol.
Car battery died, that's kind of what started the fight with the co-worker. Get my car towed, pay big to get it back and now the battery dies. Yup sounds about right.
Finally (maybe, the nights young), almost had my power turned off because of my mother. we lived together, I let her take care of the bills because I worked so much... Moved into my own place and transferred utilities as all of the bills were in my name. Misplaced trust there, found out from the power company she'd really screwed that up and I owe them $500. There working with me... Kind of... After I pay $290. Just another rock on my shoulders.
Hate weekends, to much time to think, now hate workdays with attitudes like my coworker who really overstepped.
This world really sucks. Make lemonade? Can't the world didn't even give me lemons, just sh*t
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Talking about your son in a public forum just might help you find ways to improve the situation. In my own strictly personals, stuff like that doesn't get better on its own.
Gentle empathy on the shit storm. Been raining turds and farts on the south plains, too. Suckus maximus. . .
At least my roses are well fertilized.
I always have no idea how to respond to a friend in distress- it just feels so all consuming and great, I don't know if I could even put a dent in their sorrow.
If anything, I respect what you had to go through, and that you got through it. That, to me, seems like a sign of power and perseverance.. I hope the world can be seen in a better light at some point
Please don't ever give up. The one thing we can be sure of is that nothing is static. We never know what's just around the corner. Sending gentle healing hugs...
This site and its anonymity is the best. You can say what you want but more importantly tell another living person how you feel. There is no one i trust anymore to open up to.
Most people on here are open as well so it helps so much.People try to help and every once in a while someone says something and it truly helps me to get another perspective. Therapists help I know but this place to me is the best.No reprimanding...