Just another Saturday
Today is cloudy and so is my mood. I am getting my car serviced. I have this friend that use to work where I work that has a husband that works on cars and in his spare time he makes a little extra by changing oil and checking out cars to see if they are road worthy..He is a honest man, so decided to take my car to him, right now am just hanging out because I drove home and he took the car back to his house. I have my driver test for full license this coming Wednesday. I failed it the last time. I have been taking driving lessons and practiced my driving so we will see Wednesday whether it has paid off...I have been planting more flowers this week. Have my hanging baskets up that I fix up every year...I don't think I am going to plant anymore this year. I have replanted plants into bigger containers that outgrown the containers they were in so now we need to get to hard part of the yard clearing the land. Most of our land goes up hill. About two years ago we had a part of it leveled off so keeping that part maintained and to start clearing out the rest of it is going to be hard work. I find the older I get the more tired I get when doing heavy work like that, seems like as soon as we get one area cleared and start on another area the weeds has grown in the area we cleared and we have to do that area over again. Just seems like a never ending job.During all this I think of Khristy and wished her death never happen. I was hoping she would get to come to Ireland. We had talked about it but it just never happened. My son keeps telling me that he is saving up for a trip to Ireland and he keeps telling me that this year will be the year, but he hasn't made it yet. I don't think my daughter will ever be able to afford the trip. I wish I had the money to send them a airline ticket over here. My son is acting rather different these days. He is not one that is good at writing or even emailing me but I do get the occational email maybe once ever month. Since Christmas he hasn't email me, well once on Mother's Day and that's been about it. I just know there is something going on with him but just don't know how to bring it up without him getting upset. I have a tendency to upset him when I bring up topics he doesn't want to discuss. His wife only emails me when something is happening like they are in a disagreement to get my opinion on the matter, then after it's solved I don't hear from her until something else comes up. I found out they are moving, don't know when they are going to move. I haven't heard from either one of them so they might have already moved. Maybe I should just leave well enough alone and when he is ready to talk about it hopefully I will be the one he talks to. I do worry about him because he lost a friend to complications due to drug use just before his sister died. The guy that died was a ex boyfriend of Khristy's. They came to Kentucky from Florida where they were both doing alot of drugs to make a new live for themselves, but ended up getting back into the drugs while in Kentucky. She went back to Florida and he stayed on working with my son. He died in December of 2005 and she died in March of 2006. My son was on antidepessants for a time, but I don't think he stayed on them for very long. Maybe I am just reading too much into him not getting in contact with me. I think I will go out and look at the flowers I have planted....
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