Just another crappy day

Well sitting here at the last of my first 12 hr shift of the week and just feels like everything is crumbling around me. Last week they told us we were supposed to do things a certain way here at work. Then yesterday they scold us for doing it because, like we tried to tell them (we being me and the other operators, they being management), you couldn't operate the water system that way. They nearly blew several large lines and it's our faults. REALLY!!! Then I've got an opportunity at work to advance my career here but I have a choice I can continue my counseling schooling or change degree paths and go into hydrology and computer programming. To make my decision I have to figure out what my wife wants to do. We were doing the counseling schooling together but our school plan hit a snag that's gotten bigger as time progresses. She wanted to go to a college in another city but now she wants to stay here in Amarillo. So I don't know what to do about that. Then later today I am going to see a new pdoc because with my work schedule and the fact that I have had to go into work at the last minute my last pdoc will no longer see me. I had to miss too many appointments so they referred me to another office. I can tell I'm in a hyper manic state right now and with everything going on I'm really angry and my GAD is flaring up bad. Bad enough my current anti-anxiety isn't even close to touching my panic attacks. Oh well when you have no friends and limited family support what do you do? Oh yeah deal with it and drudge on with this pathetic life. What I wouldn't give for one friend here locally. Oh well whatever such is life or at least mine.