just an update

well, they did the inspection, i passed. at leaste thats over. place is pretty clean and i did it allmyself. i feel very good about that. im going to try to deep it clean. trying to figure what im going to say and do when son gets back. it cant be how it allways is. i cant take it anymoore. i think i might have to kick him out for a while. i hav eno backup exept people who think vialince is the only way. it cant be the only way. im not a violent person. i hate it wen people yell. it realy freaks me out, and there will be yelling, i allready know that. not on my part, on his part. oh ive realy screwed up this time. i feel so week. i have to be stronge. im very scared about how this is going to go down. something has to change or i will finnally have that nervious breakdown ive been needing. ok, will try to get back on later. by for now...