Just A Weepy Moment
I was going through our storage room to pull out some of the holiday decorations when I came across a box I hadn't seen before. I opened it up and it was like stepping back in time. There were year books, my grad hat (that I tossed, retrieved, and had my closest pals sign in a silver sharpie) a grad scrapbook, my grade 5 year book. All made me smile and tear up.
But worst was what was at the bottom. Silly things really. There was a build a bear certificate for the monkey Joey built me when we were together for just over a year and my grandpa died. And a loose leaf page he had decorated with doodles and a heart that said JRK + JLS forever. Where did that guy go?? The guy who was sweet enough to care when I cried, the guy who made me a stuffy to snuggle when he wasn't there because I was upset, the guy who claimed he would do anything for me and went to lengths to prove it! Who am I with now? He's a complete stranger. I sat at the kitchen table and cried for a good half hour. It's just another nail in this relationships coffin....
But worst was what was at the bottom. Silly things really. There was a build a bear certificate for the monkey Joey built me when we were together for just over a year and my grandpa died. And a loose leaf page he had decorated with doodles and a heart that said JRK + JLS forever. Where did that guy go?? The guy who was sweet enough to care when I cried, the guy who made me a stuffy to snuggle when he wasn't there because I was upset, the guy who claimed he would do anything for me and went to lengths to prove it! Who am I with now? He's a complete stranger. I sat at the kitchen table and cried for a good half hour. It's just another nail in this relationships coffin....
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I think you should tell him exactly this! Someone told me recently that when your relationship is on the rocks, someone has to take the first step to fixing or ending it. Which do you choose? I\'m sorry you\'re going through all this. You can chat with me on FB anytime you see me on.
I\'m already taking steps to fix it. I\'m worried bringing up the \'where did this guy go?\' topic will make him defensive and just be a negative. I think I need to teach myself to love him all over again and forget the way it WAS and accept the way it IS. People are always changing, I\'m sure love has to change with it....I just sometimes wish it didnt!
Me too. I know you are, taking steps. I was just saying they told me that, so you\'re already taking a step.. I should really say that better! lol