just a day where I am trying to find my footing

my current state of mind is just feeling kind of 'off kilter' and I am resolving to 

tell myself that "It's just a day where I am trying to find my footing a bit.." Just one of those days..

The statement is calming me down and giving me a relative way of thinking about

things... resulting to feel if not a '0' or a '1' - it is both '0 & 1' and a lot of grey. Things are getting

done. I am taking care of my home and Blue and I've done my work for the day...

The day started pretty well...I was feeling really motivated when I first got to work...

motivated in the sense that I had my eyes on maybe going for a greater type of work...eventually...

but then the reality of working the job that I have made me manage my feelings to get to work

well - and so I did........

Back here at home,

I've been feeling kind of lost and without a sense of power.. but

another point to recognize is that I won't be talking to my therapist again until next Tuesday

and since it's the holiday week - there's no communication by email or phone or voicemail either - rightly

so, but I guess I was feeling kind of lost because of it - because of not having someone to turn to.

I have you guys to turn to - and that helps a great deal. I don't know why it feels wrong

to complain about stuff but I'll reassure myself that 'this is a place' to make sense of things

and give an order to my thoughts and feelings.

Ending the day now. Have a good evening and a good tomorrow.

peace,

Mark