Just a catch up on life
The last time I wrote I was working on my stress levels due to a missed period in February. My goal was to have at least two normal cycles in a row prior to moving forward with our next FET. Well my last two cycles were normal and I also joined a program to help with my stress. During a fertility summit I was introduced to a number of people who specialize in different areas of fertility. A woman named Molly Nichols has a 10-week program called Believe 2.0: Fertility Visualization and Your Emotional Well Being. Each week she discusses a different topic: Finding presence, healing from the past, Releasing anger, seeing your body as fertile, etc. and after the discussion she does a fertility visualization, which I love. She has you visualize yourself pregnant or visualize your future family and I must say I have never really done that before. She gives us “homework” assignments that include finding a picture of a pregnant belly, a baby, and something that means fertility like a symbol or picture of some kind. By forcing myself to look at these images I have been able to tolerate seeing and being around pregnant women! It’s kind of amazing. I also had a dream last night that we did the FET and it was positive! I NEVER dream shit like that. It’s always about other people being pregnant or having babies. Anyway, the program is definitely helping my anxiety. DH and I will be moving forward with the FET with my next period, which should be in a week or so. We went to Florida a few weeks ago and it was amazing. We made friends with another very nice couple. The boyfriend kept buying us drinks and shots, but luckily our fruity cocktail was pretty weak so we didn’t get drunk. Well his girlfriend didn’t look it, but got so unbelievably drunk that when she tried to get up to run to the bathroom to puke, while we’re at the very crowded pool, she was so unsteady that she grabbed on to the nearest umbrella and took it down with her!!! That umbrella was shading a lovely family of 4 by the way. Lol I had to help her to the bathroom and take care of her drunk ass until we could help her to her room to pass out. Luckily I’m a nurse and didn’t care and the family of 4 was quick enough to move out of the way. It was seriously hilarious! She was so mortified the next day that they hung out at the kids pool. Haha oh well.
By the way, this program has not only taught me to be more present in my life, but to stop putting my life on hold. I plan on getting the hell out of my current job after this FET. Also, Chris and I have really been enjoying having something to look forward to every few months. We went to the Poconos in Feb, Florida in April, and now we’re planning a trip to Colorado! If we don’t have kids yet, we may as well see the world! DH even bought a map of the U.S. that says Fuhry Family Adventures in the corner and it came with a tin of push pins for you to put a pin where you’ve traveled to. It’s pretty cool. It’s time to start enjoying life now! Sorry for the long post, but thank you so much for reading!! I’m always thinking of you ladies. xoxo
By the way, this program has not only taught me to be more present in my life, but to stop putting my life on hold. I plan on getting the hell out of my current job after this FET. Also, Chris and I have really been enjoying having something to look forward to every few months. We went to the Poconos in Feb, Florida in April, and now we’re planning a trip to Colorado! If we don’t have kids yet, we may as well see the world! DH even bought a map of the U.S. that says Fuhry Family Adventures in the corner and it came with a tin of push pins for you to put a pin where you’ve traveled to. It’s pretty cool. It’s time to start enjoying life now! Sorry for the long post, but thank you so much for reading!! I’m always thinking of you ladies. xoxo
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Oh BecMarie, so good to see such a positive post from you. I really hope that this next FET is your time. Sending positive vibes your way! xx
Great to hear from you! That map idea is so incredibly cute- I just might have to steal it :) I\'m glad to hear that you are in a good place and moving forward to wherever that might be. IF has already stolen too much of our time to continually put our lives on complete hold and keep us from enjoying ourselves. Your adult \"Spring Break\" to Florida sounds like it was a wonderful time and much deserved. I hope the next couple of weeks go smoothly for you and that everything you envisioned for yourself in your class comes true. Wishing you nothing but the best!
That program sounds amazing, especially since it\'s helping you with your anxiety! I literally laughed out loud when I read your story about the drunk girl in Florida pulling the umbrella down. I would be pretty mortified too if I were her, LOL. Sounds like a great time overall!! It\'s important to keep living life and to enjoy it!! I\'m so excited for your FET! I hope your dream comes true. Thinking of you always! Talk to you soon. xoxo
Yay! You\'re back! I am glad that you found something that is helping with anxiety. It sounds like a great program.
Where/when are you heading to CO? I live in CO if you want suggestions!
Wow, the program you are doing sounds awesome! After my comments on your most recent journal, I think I need to do this type of program! I could especially benefit from \"healing from the past & releasing anger\". I really need that!
I\'m happy that you found such a great program and that your Florida trip was a blast! So happy that your FET is coming up. xoxo
Glad you are doing well! And the program by Molly sounds very insteresting- i will check it out. We all could use some healing after the heartbreak of infertiity. I personally need to let go of all these negative emotions or channel them in another direction. lol.