Just a bit busy

 Shit, today I missed my nap now. went to the noon meeting today, and that was good. Bob came by after and wanted me to go and paint this place. We ended up in the basement of this dump sorting and mixing paint. Real garbage stuff. I told him I had to go early so i can go to my church meeting. still not sure about the church thing. I do need to work on my relationship with God tho. A.A. says that's the only thing that can keep me sober, so it can't hurt. It goes along with things so that's alright. I just have a little hang up with most Christians. Even that name can bother me because of it's misuse, but I need to keep an open mind if I'm to learn a differant spiritual life. Can't learn if your minds closed or prejudiced before you even try it. I don't know it, so if I can get something to help, that's great. Payed Bob the rest of his money so I'm broke. i know the church is struggling and they really need money, but I can't do anything until I get working on the 15. I'm supposed to meet with my sponsor tomorow and go over what I read. Otherwise I'm doing good. Had some thoughts of using because I felt bored, but their just foolish thoughts. i don't have any intention of following through with anything. I know they are lies. Ain't no good there. I like myself and what I'm doing. I have been feeling a little frustrated tho lately. Things just don't go as fast as I would like. It's all good tho. Just have to wait for work. Patience, really noy one of my best virtues. At times I'm alright, but it can at times seem like my whole life is spent waiting. Thank you Lord for everything.