Just sad....

1-12-11:  I just have been feeling really down, again.  I miss Scott so much.  For a while, although I always miss him, I was not having the gut wrenching pain.  But, here it is again...
I wonder if it is the weather, the length of time without Scott, the other struggles in our family, losing my mom, or what?  Maybe all of the above.
I am thinking of going back to counseling.  The flashbacks are returning, too.  I hate this journey, now, as much as I ever did.  Maybe more.  It is the never-ending journey and unrelenting!  It just exhausts me.