june 25

I couldn't sleep last night, I kept having to toss and turn every five seconds. I forced myself not to take any pills only because I'm running out of them. I feel like I was ran over by a truck, and my head is full of everything that is going on right now. How do I get through this? How do I find a way to make myself feel better? I wish someone had ran me over with a truck, then all of this would be over and I would finally get some quiet. I hope when we die we just disapear, I don't want to go to a after life. I just want this to end, and for me to stop existing.