june 25

I couldn't sleep last night, I kept having to toss and turn every five seconds. I forced myself not to take any pills only because I'm running out of them. I feel like I was ran over by a truck, and my head is full of everything that is going on right now. How do I get through this? How do I find a way to make myself feel better? I wish someone had ran me over with a truck, then all of this would be over and I would finally get some quiet. I hope when we die we just disapear, I don't want to go to a after life. I just want this to end, and for me to stop existing.

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deleted_user
deleted_user

seems like we never get what we want... youll probably go to heaven, lol. everyone who wants to go to heaven will probably just stop existing. just seems to be the way life works. i think the trick is to want the opposite to get the opposite, to get what you wanted, but couldnt admit you wanted... as if.
balderdashandpiffle
balderdashandpiffle

I know the stress of the upcoming exams must be having an effect but if you can surmount your concerns everything will be better. Trite I know but just try - breathe deeply and if that don\'t work whack a tree with a stick. If ever your worried and cant sleep IM me if i am on line - which is mostly.
FinalFantasy
FinalFantasy

Stress....and keeping thoughts wide open in your mind will do that to you. I used to do 2 things to put me to sleep so I wouldnt wake up. I know you dont like taking pills.....so I feel. But I used to take Tylenol PM or I would drink 1 beer and that was it. I\'m out. I\'m not a drinker so 1 beer makes me sooo sleepy....dont know why...I assume it\'s cause I dont drink hardly ever. but when I do....I get too sleepy that\'s why I dont like drinking.

Anyhow....try and sort things out before you go to bed. Cause if you go to bed with unfinished thoughts.......your mind will be racing and thinking till your mentally exhausted....then your physical body will follow suit....and then sleep. but that could take hours.....sorry to hear your issue. Just my own opinion.....
~Joe
deleted_user
deleted_user

I wish that you were feeling better, my friend. I can\'t add much to what has been said here, but I will add plenty of gentle hugs to help get you through the dark and out into the light again....