Jumped Rope Today
Today I jumped rope for the first time in years and years. I've had a jump rope in my closet ever since I moved here to Miami 6 years ago and this is the first time I've used it. It was many years before that since I used it as well. The last time I remember using it was in college, my freshman year. It took a bit of getting used to, since I have so much fat and loose skin that moved when I jumped, but it wasn't totally an unpleasant feeling. I think it's because I know I have all this loose skin since I'm losing weight. I weighed in today, and I was higher, I was 228 pounds. It's water weight, since a couple days ago I was 225.5 pounds. I know I didn't gain 3 pounds of fat over 2 days. I haven't been eating that much higher than my calorie range, so I know it's not that. It must be water weight, and I'm okay with that. I've been drinking a lot more water today so I can lose some of the weight. I haven't been using the bathroom much, but I know it will come off in time.
Other than that, I did laundry today. I needed to, since I only have a couple work shirts that I wear. One of them is a button down shirt that I wear with other shirts under it to kinda stretch out the wear on it. The other is just a polo shirt that has the clinic logo on it. I washed Geo's clothes too. The only thing I didn't wash was the sheets, but they can be done another time. I don't mind sleeping in the same sheets for a couple weeks. I go to bed clean, so it's not like I'm getting them super dirty. I hate doing laundry, so I wait as long as I can between loads. I just do a couple every couple of weeks. I might be lazy, but oh well. As long as Geo and I can stand it, we are okay. When the sheets get dirty I will wash them. It was my other big thing for the day.
Sleep last night was good.... I woke up like I was going to work, but I'm taking today off so I could rest. While the laundry was drying I took a nap. I was hoping I could sleep more, but I couldn't. Oh well. I just have 2 more days of work before the weekend, so that's something. On the weekend I should be able to rest. I've been making dinner for a while now, doing something different than baked chicken when I can. Tonight we had chicken stir fry with Japanese veggies and rice. It came out good, but it didn't seem like a lot when it was all cooked. I had a small bit and left most of it for Geo, and I ate the rice more. I didn't want to cook dinner, and I think tomorrow I'm going to be lazy and just bake the chicken since I've been working so much. I get about 12 hours of sleep on a work night, and last night I got much too. I guess that's why I haven't been able to sleep more except for naps. It's enough sleep for me. I just love sleeping so much that it's all I want to do sometimes.
Mood today was good... nothing really special. I'm feeling better about the whole Valentine's day thing, and I'm over the not getting flowers thing as much as I can. In fact, I had totally forgotten about it until I saw my journal from yesterday. I guess that's a good thing. I hope tomorrow is going to be a good day. I want to be able to complete a week of my new schedule this week. I've done half, and the next 2 days should be okay. I know I have to work with the other volunteer tomorrow, so there's probably going to be jealousy issues. It's just something I have to work on. I'm sure the other girl does a good job, I just have to make sure I'm doing a better job than she is. I know my bosses give me a lot of work and I do it well. I just need to get over my insecurity and need to be the best. I always have to be the best at whatever I do. It's just the way I am.
Food today was good.. I'm a bit below my calorie range, but I had a bunch of rice tonight and that sent me close to my range. Before that I was in the low 1,000's but now I'm in the 1,400's. I had Triscuits and yogurt for breakfast and ramen for lunch. I'm a bit low on protein and fat, so I might drink a glass of milk before I go to bed. That would also put me in my calorie range. I'm still battling ED with the calories... I want to be in the 1,200 calorie range, even though I know that's not enough. I'm exercising more and burning more calories, so I need to eat more. It's just I was losing weight so fast by eating that little (but I was losing too fast). At least my weight is somewhat stable now. Stress was low except for the whole ED thing... I wish that I could get over it faster. I just want to be able to eat and not worry about calories and tracking every last one. Oh well... I will learn someday.
Other than that, I did laundry today. I needed to, since I only have a couple work shirts that I wear. One of them is a button down shirt that I wear with other shirts under it to kinda stretch out the wear on it. The other is just a polo shirt that has the clinic logo on it. I washed Geo's clothes too. The only thing I didn't wash was the sheets, but they can be done another time. I don't mind sleeping in the same sheets for a couple weeks. I go to bed clean, so it's not like I'm getting them super dirty. I hate doing laundry, so I wait as long as I can between loads. I just do a couple every couple of weeks. I might be lazy, but oh well. As long as Geo and I can stand it, we are okay. When the sheets get dirty I will wash them. It was my other big thing for the day.
Sleep last night was good.... I woke up like I was going to work, but I'm taking today off so I could rest. While the laundry was drying I took a nap. I was hoping I could sleep more, but I couldn't. Oh well. I just have 2 more days of work before the weekend, so that's something. On the weekend I should be able to rest. I've been making dinner for a while now, doing something different than baked chicken when I can. Tonight we had chicken stir fry with Japanese veggies and rice. It came out good, but it didn't seem like a lot when it was all cooked. I had a small bit and left most of it for Geo, and I ate the rice more. I didn't want to cook dinner, and I think tomorrow I'm going to be lazy and just bake the chicken since I've been working so much. I get about 12 hours of sleep on a work night, and last night I got much too. I guess that's why I haven't been able to sleep more except for naps. It's enough sleep for me. I just love sleeping so much that it's all I want to do sometimes.
Mood today was good... nothing really special. I'm feeling better about the whole Valentine's day thing, and I'm over the not getting flowers thing as much as I can. In fact, I had totally forgotten about it until I saw my journal from yesterday. I guess that's a good thing. I hope tomorrow is going to be a good day. I want to be able to complete a week of my new schedule this week. I've done half, and the next 2 days should be okay. I know I have to work with the other volunteer tomorrow, so there's probably going to be jealousy issues. It's just something I have to work on. I'm sure the other girl does a good job, I just have to make sure I'm doing a better job than she is. I know my bosses give me a lot of work and I do it well. I just need to get over my insecurity and need to be the best. I always have to be the best at whatever I do. It's just the way I am.
Food today was good.. I'm a bit below my calorie range, but I had a bunch of rice tonight and that sent me close to my range. Before that I was in the low 1,000's but now I'm in the 1,400's. I had Triscuits and yogurt for breakfast and ramen for lunch. I'm a bit low on protein and fat, so I might drink a glass of milk before I go to bed. That would also put me in my calorie range. I'm still battling ED with the calories... I want to be in the 1,200 calorie range, even though I know that's not enough. I'm exercising more and burning more calories, so I need to eat more. It's just I was losing weight so fast by eating that little (but I was losing too fast). At least my weight is somewhat stable now. Stress was low except for the whole ED thing... I wish that I could get over it faster. I just want to be able to eat and not worry about calories and tracking every last one. Oh well... I will learn someday.
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we all hope to learn that someday! as long as we are trying thats the best we can do. jump rope! i cant remember last time i did it, i was never very good. cant imagine doing it now with my knee, getting old, lol. youll be fine at work, you know and your bosses know how hard and good you work. try and not let that co worker get to you and make you feel bad, your not. hugsss
Love the jump rope idea! Do you remember any of the little rhymes for jumping rope when a kid?