July Stress
June was an alright month. Nothing too stressful happened to me. Just been working and doing art and that's really it.
But, in July there were a few people who I thought were my friends who ended up not being my friends anymore. I used to hangout with this group of people with similar interests. I would go and have a nice time at first. Thinking that I was cared about and my opinion actually mattered.
It was like that for a while. Until multiple people got harassed and the group organizer not doing anything about it or even talking about it. They avoid confrontation and just pretend like things never happen. Plus after that one girl, Jenn, did all that terrible shit to my friend, and the organizer knowing how shitty of a person she is, and he lets her back in the group. That really told me how much of a fuck he didnt give. He just cares about making the group bigger.
Plus, I got harassed by my friend Nova. If you read in the journal before this, he was a close friend of mine at the time. He cusses me out on twitter because I wont say hi to another friend of mine, who he harassed and cussed out last year for no good reason at all.
So yea, I had to reevaluate my life and who I hungout with. It's mainly been people from this group who gave me drama. Nova and Jenn are from the group. Plus theres 2 other people who gave me mini-drama for no reason.
So after realizing this group has been givin me stress, I just decide to leave it. I try to just leave the website and unfriend people. But, then they all of a sudden after months of not talkin to me, wanna talk to me and its all of a sudden important. I unfriend them because I dont need people who will only care about me after I dont wanna talk to them anymore instead of actually talking to me and not avoiding my calls or messages.
So I end up blocking them because thyre butthurt that someone who they dont ever contact is unfriending them. It was stressful cuz I was friends with multiple people on multiple websites online. Most of these people have my phone number and not one of them bothered to text me at all. Not even once. Shows how much they care.
But yea, that was my July stress. I got over it after a week. But, still it was dumb that it even happened in the first place and dumb that I tried hanging out with this group of people. No wonder my other friend barely hangs out with anyone. Because there are too many mothafuckahs who exist.
But, in July there were a few people who I thought were my friends who ended up not being my friends anymore. I used to hangout with this group of people with similar interests. I would go and have a nice time at first. Thinking that I was cared about and my opinion actually mattered.
It was like that for a while. Until multiple people got harassed and the group organizer not doing anything about it or even talking about it. They avoid confrontation and just pretend like things never happen. Plus after that one girl, Jenn, did all that terrible shit to my friend, and the organizer knowing how shitty of a person she is, and he lets her back in the group. That really told me how much of a fuck he didnt give. He just cares about making the group bigger.
Plus, I got harassed by my friend Nova. If you read in the journal before this, he was a close friend of mine at the time. He cusses me out on twitter because I wont say hi to another friend of mine, who he harassed and cussed out last year for no good reason at all.
So yea, I had to reevaluate my life and who I hungout with. It's mainly been people from this group who gave me drama. Nova and Jenn are from the group. Plus theres 2 other people who gave me mini-drama for no reason.
So after realizing this group has been givin me stress, I just decide to leave it. I try to just leave the website and unfriend people. But, then they all of a sudden after months of not talkin to me, wanna talk to me and its all of a sudden important. I unfriend them because I dont need people who will only care about me after I dont wanna talk to them anymore instead of actually talking to me and not avoiding my calls or messages.
So I end up blocking them because thyre butthurt that someone who they dont ever contact is unfriending them. It was stressful cuz I was friends with multiple people on multiple websites online. Most of these people have my phone number and not one of them bothered to text me at all. Not even once. Shows how much they care.
But yea, that was my July stress. I got over it after a week. But, still it was dumb that it even happened in the first place and dumb that I tried hanging out with this group of people. No wonder my other friend barely hangs out with anyone. Because there are too many mothafuckahs who exist.
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