July 22nd 2013
I am here again, two days later haha it feels like a miracle to me that I had the time to sit and write. It always makes me feel better but it is so hard to find the time anymore. I was reading back through my entries of previous days and I realize my mood fluctuates so much. I mean geez.. one entry I am raving about my awesome happiness and the next I am cursing up a storm. I don't know what that means but it became clear to me after reading a few entries.
I am in an okay mood, the last few days have been fine, nothing special I was off this weekend so I relaxed and I start on nights tonight for a few days. Work is going well, I got my one year evaluation and raise (2.5% wooo) and it was nice. They love me there. They'd offer me full time or a more steady part time is it was open (thats what my boss said) but I am alright with what I am doing now. I make decent money and enjoy the change of pace and all three shifts. I saved most of my money and was able to buy that car outright so thats a plus and I just booked for vacation to the beach and bought the hotel room and my boyfriend will buy the gas, food ect. It is so nice to have a little bit of money.
Anxiety wise I am stable. I get anxious every now and again but for the most part I am calm. I feel that this new car has helped me and will help me to feel more secure in the winter as well. I am trying not to dwell on the "its gonna snow in a few months" but it does cross my mind every now and again.
For now I am just enjoying the summer, reading my new al-anon book, one entry a day and working on studying for the GRE exam. I have put some thought into my future.. now I have to put the work in. lol. I have planned to begin applying to programs after graduation in May, taking the summer off and maybe even more time and then begin masters classes, as I work hopeful in an OB unit. Yes I am almost there, less than a year and I will be A BSN and be one step closer to my dreams.
Now like I said, I gotta do the work.
I am in an okay mood, the last few days have been fine, nothing special I was off this weekend so I relaxed and I start on nights tonight for a few days. Work is going well, I got my one year evaluation and raise (2.5% wooo) and it was nice. They love me there. They'd offer me full time or a more steady part time is it was open (thats what my boss said) but I am alright with what I am doing now. I make decent money and enjoy the change of pace and all three shifts. I saved most of my money and was able to buy that car outright so thats a plus and I just booked for vacation to the beach and bought the hotel room and my boyfriend will buy the gas, food ect. It is so nice to have a little bit of money.
Anxiety wise I am stable. I get anxious every now and again but for the most part I am calm. I feel that this new car has helped me and will help me to feel more secure in the winter as well. I am trying not to dwell on the "its gonna snow in a few months" but it does cross my mind every now and again.
For now I am just enjoying the summer, reading my new al-anon book, one entry a day and working on studying for the GRE exam. I have put some thought into my future.. now I have to put the work in. lol. I have planned to begin applying to programs after graduation in May, taking the summer off and maybe even more time and then begin masters classes, as I work hopeful in an OB unit. Yes I am almost there, less than a year and I will be A BSN and be one step closer to my dreams.
Now like I said, I gotta do the work.
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