Journal Entry #3

One of the things that really hurts when I try to reach out to others for help/support is how many (if not most) seem to immediately jump to the conclusion that I'm "just upset about not having a girlfriend" or that I'm upset about "not being sexually active with a partner" and then dismiss me afterwards. Too many people seem to assume that just because I'm a guy that must be the only thing on my mind, and that couldn't be further from the truth.
 
I admit that it would be nice to meet a nice girl who actually cares about me and is sensitive about my issues and problems, but even if I were to meet such a girl the idea of sex is still off-putting to me. Over the years I've just become so accustomed to girls/women being so hostile towards me and the ones who do seem to cozy up to me only doing so to use me and then cutting all ties with me once I've served my purpose. It would take a while before I was comfortable enough and trusted a girl enough to open up to her in that way, simply because I've been hurt so often in the past.
 
To reiterate: my problem with girls/women isn't that I want a significant other or to get laid. My problem is that I simply want to be treated like an average, decent person and not be abused or looked at or treated like I have the plague or am some sort of disgusting creep just because I'm a quiet introvert.