Jobs going good

  Yesiree! The job is just dandy so far. I have a great partner, and we get along very well. He's pretty easy going, not bossy, and lets me do my work. He does tell me when something isn't right, and that's alright. He does it respectfully, and I appreciate that. The work, I really don't find hard at all. There's no pressure, or pushing you to go beyond what your capable of. They let you do work good, and don't pressure you. I even get payed for the time we spend driving. Today after we finished the one job we had to take a sprayer part to Missisauga, and then wait for them to fix it. Then we hit rush hour on the highway comming back, but I still get payed for the time. What a differance from Bob. They actually want to pay you proper, and they gon out of their way to make sure that you do get payed good. No fighting at all. That makes you feel like a human being. Real respect. So far I love the job, and there is no problems. Today, Chris told me that he really likes working with me. That kinda surprised me to have someone come right out and say that. I was going to ask him anyway how he felt I was doing. I'm getting used to his driving too. He can be a little agressive, and inpatient with slow drivers, but he does drive good. I watched him today pretty closely, and I did feel very comfortable. I've been with a lot of crazy drivers over the years, but I feel i can trust him. With Bob I get very nervouse because his mind is on so many other things. Lots of times I have to yell at him to watch the stop sign, or red lights, because he's on the phone and not paying attention. That stuff gets me mad. I worked with Bob yesterday, and of course I had to argue and fight to get my money. I'm really tired of that. We did talk awhile about it. He's so stupid. Brings up how much I made with Paul, what his friend payed me, how much I get from O.W. as if that's really his bussiness. He can really be just a jerk. The little bit I do get from him does help out tho. I can use that for spending money, and keep my pay for bills, and to save. From now on tho I want my pay after every day I work for Bob. He tries to get you all confused when you let it build up. I'm not doing that anymore. From now on, cash at the end of the day no matter what. I just can't trust Bob. I've tried my hardest to trust him, but it just doesn't matter. I can't. I've seen him lie, and cheat with people, and those things always pop up in my nmind. I really have tried beyond what others would have done to trust him, but it just can't happen. I know, and even that I question, that there is another side of Bob that I very much want to like, but I just can't fully trust him in my heart. There's so much of him that's kinda secret. I think he does want to do the things he talks about, but there's something wrong. It's like he's greedy at times, and the only thing he seems to really care about is getting money. I believe that he's well off, but he seems to be one of those people that it's never enough. He says he has a wife, but he's never with her. Always seems like he's just interested in the properties more. Oh well, not my bussiness. The fridge is full of food, but it's been so hot the past few days that I don't feel like eating much. Today was really bad. I was just drenched in sweat. My T shirt was just hanging off me. Tomorrow I'm going to take an extra shirt. The heat was just awfull. Funny how we complain about winter so much, and can't wait for summer, but then we complain about the hot weather.  Never satisfied. I guess that's life. anyway, as far as life goes, I've come to the conclusion that all we can do is the best we can. everyday, I try a little harder just to be a nice person. I really don't care about much else because most times that's all I can do. the result, usually is a little bit of peace of mind. I've accepted that I'm not most likely going to be anything special, or be rich, or be the father and husband that I wanted to be, and that's alright. I think I have a lot more now, just being me. No frills, bells or whistles, just me. And that does feel nice. When people like me just for who I am it makes me happy. I feel like I have acomplished something very special. People seem to respect the person I have become, and that's good, and I have only God to thank for it. it's a funny life. You can sometimes struggle all you want to be someone, but most times when you stop struggling, and just let it be, you find that you have been someone all along. Just need to stop, and let it be. Thank you Lord for all you do for me. Thank you for the person you made of me. I truly would not want to be anyone else now. I am happy with me. Thank you.