Job or Suicide...

Today is saturday and I am just relaxing. Yesterday I honestly felt the risk that I was going to kill myself. I don't know if any of you have the same feeling as I, but I feel like I am not in my own body. I am tingling and my blood feels like it's flushing through me, as if I would just kill my self right there impulsively. I  am depressed now. I don't know what to do. Would it be possible to find a full time job,a good one and then take some time off from school to work? I will start a new semester soon and I know that I did very poorly in pretty much every course I took this past semester, it was just not a good semester in for the most part. I think that I am going to need to do much better to really get myself to graduate school. I am so tired. I don't like to tell people that I am tired because I don't think that they can understand the reasons for which I feel tired.
 
My mom and I are going to go to a movie this afternoon at the hollywood theatre where we can sit in the VIP section and eat and drink while watching the film. I am also exited because I just got a new replacement iPhone 3GS. I am back in the Mac loop. Now everything syncs together nicely throughout the day. I don't know why I need it if I have these place to kill myself. And there are so many risks in trying. What if I live? What if I am in a worse condition after a suicidal attempt. I am scared to see what is going to happen in the future. I feel like I am risking my life with every exam that I don't do well on or something like that.
 
I want to know what to do. I want a job and to become independent form my parents. My hope is to go work for Sprint in a call center and maybe get some health insurance. I am going to go look around for a job or what not! I think that I should apply to some hotels, I love hotels.