Jealousy

I don't understand some people in life, that they can't be personally happy with what God's given them and blessed in there life within honesty, that they have to consume, and erotically drive someone into insanity over jealousy impulses. Someone that's went through horrid things no one should envy unless it's only because there a stronger, wiser person and the people that tried to kill them, break them and hostile them into slavery couldn't. That's what I've been through and people are finding jealousy in God's and Christ's love for me to see me through and heal and renew me. How do you deal when it's conflicting your life in every corner every aspect where you dont trust anyone? Have no friends? I mean it's easier to say im crazy and unstable then to admit there wrongs. Right? They don't want to be punished for the crimes they have committed thats why I'm targetted because I believe in justice being served to the max. You shouldn't of done it if you were so scared to get caught take responsibility and result in punishment. That's law don't be jealous of me because I know my rights from wrongs and some people tend to want them backwards. It is not a crime to worship Christ. Jealousy is because you don't have the relationship I do with him because you choose not to change your ways. You can have a relationship with Christ but that doesn't mean he's going to let you get away with what these people have done to me is what I want to say. But then again they don't want to change tgey just want temporary saving there is no such thing as temporary saving with Christ once you dedicate your life to him. Just venting.