jan7,2011
i felt i need to sit down and just cry...i just looked around and i have no family my dad and sister and brothers r all about their selfs and what they want...i just cant belive all that i done for them and they turned there back on me when i need them the most...they belived that i brough all this on myself for the divorced from my first husband but how can my family wanted me to stay with someone who puts there love one though hell? i dont undrstand...this man toremented me every day of my life for 3 years there wasnt a day that went by that i didnt cry or throw up because of this man..he also made my son's life hell..how could a family?????want that for there loved one? i dont understand there way of thinking----i so want to cut the rope thats ties me to my dad but i cant i guess i am looking for him to love me? and as far as my sister goes shes just out to get what every she can..but it still hurts that they chose my ex's over me....
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Handing you a hankie and inviting you to sit down in a soft chair ...once we know better we can do better. Make better choices for ourselves, about who and what is in our lives and to what extent we allow it to impact us.
I have been doing something for me these last 6 months and it really helps. I pray all the time. Easy casual talk with God, I poured it out after being severely depressed for 3 months. It helped. I also said, I am perfect exactly the way I am. I accept and I will be happy today with each simple thing I can do. It\'s a gift. Someone said when we start thinking of our lives in terms of what we get to do vs. what we have to do, our thoughts begin to change. I was so sick and angry about the illness, the people that had let me down...all of it was tearing me a part my friend. Making all my symptoms and my daily quality of life suffer so tremendously. I asked for a lifting of burdens and I was given peace. I started appreciating myself, my abilities and stopped thinking about all the things I can\'t do, have,become...the way people hurt me. I had to let it go. It took practice to be kind to myself, I was so used to beating myself up that with every simple affirmation of goodness and acceptance I felt so much better.....it was the start of an emotional healing. It allowed me to reach a better awareness of my energy levels, how many steps can I take in a day? How will I use those steps today? I will rest. I will treat myself with kindness and respect...I want to give you the biggest hug and pray for you today...to feel comfort, you are not alone, I\'m in it with you!
I am sorry this is so hard on you, families can be very hurtful to each other.. you din`t bring this on your self because you left your husband.. you did what you had to do. no one should have to live with abuse.
I can`t say any magic words to make this better for you . only be here and tell you I understand how you feel. so I guess you can say on line here were family now .. lol hope you stat to have better days and have some help to deal with all this hurt you have had to deal with..hugs , ann
THANK YOU GUYS SO MUCH I AM SO TIRED OF TRYIN TO BE PART OF THAT FAMILY BUT IT\'S SO HARD..ME BEING THE BABY OF THE FAMILY THEY WAS SUPPORT TO WATCH OVER AND KEEP ME SAFE...LOVE AND PEACE TO ALL