jan 25,2011
I got up this morin not feeling the best but my friend called and my sprit was uplifted then my dad called and had me all to hell -he dont know whats been going on with me.. well he wanted to know why i wasnt working and i told him i've been sick and thats all it took he said i didnt sound sick that they was nothing wrong with me that i need to get my ass out and plant a garden and do a little hard work and i started crying and told him i loved him and he said he loved me..but the point of him calling me was to tell me i need to call his girlfriend it was her birthday and they think she's got cancer...i hate that very much that she's sick and pray for her i am glad dad has someone but the point was he didnt call to check on me he wanted me to call his girlfriend..Her and i have never got along but i dont want nothing to happen to her or noone for that matter..so after i got myself together from talking with dad i called her and got her voicemail so i told her voicemail to have happy birthday and have a blessed day that i loved her...thats all i can do ... SOMETIME I JUST WISH PEOPLE WOULDN'T CALL ME AND Give ME BAD NEWS BECAUSE RIGHT NOW I CANT HANDLE THINGS LIKE I USED TO I KNOW LIKE MY DR. SAID LET IT GO TO VOICEMAIL BUT WHEN I SEE MY DAD'S NUMBER I NEED TO ANSWER IT BECAUSE I THINK SOMETHING MIGHT BE WRONG..but he never calls unless he's snow in or need to talk about hunting and fishing..i guess he's a different breed..seem like the older people can just keep moving and push things down and keep going but i guess all that falls back to how my dad was rasised.i understand that but he always seem to make time for me when mom was alive..one of my favor memories of him was takin me bluegill fishing at the lake when i was little and going coon hunting with him...he had me on a horse before i could walk he taugh me how to do things to live off the land and taugh me how to get in and out of the woods if i ever got lost but never just a hug and tell me he was proud of me...lol one thing about i can shoot the eye out of a needle i guess things are different and the people are different in the mountains of west virginia and now that i am gone from up there i see things different i see my oldest brother doing the same with his girls but thank god they moved away and got out of that little town and went to school...i just need to vent and get things off my chest..peace and love to all and may you fine some peace in this day...
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keep in mind and deep in your mind your dad is OLD SCHOOL .in a way locked in the past .can not see the preasent .look at all the medical break thoughs that have happend in the last 25 years or the computer age ,it sounds like you dad has no idea what thay are or how to deal with them. i can see part what he is saying plant a garden not for the work like he is saying ,mo point is to move foward and reep the rewadrs of a veg gard with fresh vegs or flowers from a flower gard. being outside and working with your hands is great help .i do the same with cars i put efferts into a repair and see the end result a car driving down the road.
i am not at all saying that i ageree with your dad he is wrong to choose a in law over flesh and blood , that was a idea that had some merit to it.
if your phone rings and caller id is a great thing,you dont have to awnser it !somethings are better unawnsered
take care joe
BEAUSE YOU DON`T GET ALONG LONG WITH YOUR DADS GIRLFRIEND COULD SHE BE WHY YOUR DAD IS ACTING THIS WAY WITH YOU.
SORRY ABOUT WHAT YOUR DAD SAID TO YOU, A LOT OF PEOPLE IF THEY DON`T SEE THE ILLNESS OUT LIKE CUT , BROKEN BONES, THEN THEY DON`T EXSIST TO THEM, ALLSO MAYBE HE IS GETTING SOME OUT SIDE FEED BACK?
DO NOT FEEL QUILTY BECAUSE HIS GIRLFRIEND HAS CANCER. ITS NOT YOUR FAULT. HE SHOUN`T TREAT YOU AS A LESS VALUE AS HAVEING PROBLEMS AS i THINK HE JUST DID.
TRY TO MOVE ON FROM HIS PHONE CALL.. TAKE CARE, HUGS ANN ANN
great vent...get it out, let it go...maybe you should create a short list...say 5 things that you believe are the most important, concentrate and pray about it...work on a smaller number of goals/wishes and so on...you need to find your center my darlin\', you\'re feeling overwhelmed...take in/take on less from the outside world right now and regain your strength...if you engage in conversation, it will always be a give and take...step back from all the stressors and just concentrate on less things...I began with something like that and it helped me to let go of having and keeping so much on my plate, so much that it threatened my emotions and it worked for me...start small and slowly rebuild, praying for you, hugs always!