ive found a divorce lawyer i can afford

im going 2 file and i asked my stbx if there was any reason for me not 2? he sd no.  guess i was stupid to ask b/c i just feel rejected again.  intellectually i understand that him not loving me; not wanting to b married to me is not a reflection of me, emmotionally my heart doesnt know that.  my heart thinks if he cant love me when ive loved him as i have that there must b something wrong with the way i love...or me or something....my heart is broken. it doesnt know that i am loveable.