It’s not easy being green
Kind of feeling sorry for myself but I have lots to be grateful for.
I'm feeling like a tool right now. I was asked to drive a nun to a place an hour from the monastery. No problem but I should have brought my book.
my mind is disappearing after this long trip with this Russian nun. She is so much about power and control and has a very very peculiar way of communicating. It's always an unconventional kind of interpreting what I just heard from to cobble what she meant. Gratefully I dropped her off for 3 hours and I'll spend my time at a coffee shop.
i just am in the process of gathering myself and trying to reclaim a sense of things after time her very very big persona.
I'm guessing now's the time to remember Blue and my room and friends and what I like..cue Julie Andrews'my favorite things.' :)
peace and joy to you guys!
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Mark, you are similar to The Little Red Engine That Could...you just keep trying and don't give up!! <3
Thanks Mary Louise! Keep on keeping on!
I'm a try'n :)
I know I’ve mentioned to friends at some point over an email about the legacy of mine of leaving wealth for my niece or for someone as a goal for me. That as having been once a possibility no longer is.. Today I kind of realize my legacy will be something different. I think good works and kindness to others and making nice moments for people is what my legacy will be. It seems instinctual for me to do that to try to lift people up, to try to just treat them nicely and appreciate them and give a smile. God willing it will have a ripple effect? Saying it seems weird? But it is important to me. Anyway, I’m back at the monastery and things are OK. I’m looking forward to get back into my room. See my cat and be with my things. Have a great night.
And then after driving back in the rain for the hour long trip, I came back to the sisters all wrapped up in their duties and attitudes. It struck me this place is not about me or about my way in the world. It was a leveling experience and i started to see a common ground and humility and also some of the humorous aspects of people’s near drag queen attitudes about their comportment. Well maybe that’s extreme but what I saw was funny.
You still have to protect yourself at times from folks here. I’m back in my room now and grateful to be able to scribble and spend time with Blue.
I think your legacy is lovely sweetie and you're living it now
Big squishy hug...xo
thanks sweet friend!
on the days where i can confidently achieve humility, i don't believe there is any corner of the cosmos which is all about me. mine is but to choose if, where, when and how i might participate.
wish i could ask you to pass the popcorn, but i'm feeling obliged to participate in family maintenance today. guess i kinda want to. kinda. popcorn and royal wee philosophy sound gooder than family maintenance.
i'll second sweet friend's notion that the legacy you are currently living is plenty.
Thanks Arfie!! (((hug))