its just what I miss.

I miss the school days when I didn't have to worry about trying so hard in classes, when I could just go home and sit at my computer all day, not dealing with anyone. And what is weird is I also miss, the feeling I had in my stomach when I hadn't eaten in a few days and I would wake up in the morning for school and slip on a big sweater over my underwear and bra smoke out my window letting the chilly air swim through.
I miss my calming disaster.