Its just one of those days...

*sigh* Its just one of those days you know? I just didn't want to get out of bed. I think He's tried to contanct me, I got a confusing automated call yesterday from the jail saying an inmate was trying to call and listed a bunch of buttons to push. I think I pushed the button for I dont want to hear from him. whoops, oh well? I kinda do want to hear from him. I don't want to be his girlfriend anymore, but I want to know whats going on, ya know? He was my best friend...until all this started. On another website I go on, someone asked about his medical history as far as his depression goes, because i stated "He was never like this." I relized during the time I have known him, he was on anti depressents up until last year, when things first started getting strange. well that doesnt mean he an excuse, but it helps me understand better why he may have fell into this in the first place.  I just really missed him today. I'm so used to having him around. Going christmas shopping, making cookies, visiting family, just doesnt seem right without him here.