I cut yesterday. I shouldn't have let everything get to me. I should have talked to someone. Oh well. Shoulda, woulda, coulda, but didn't. So, now I have to live w/ my shite decision.
omigod... when i read this... i was immediately taken back... to myself a year ago.
dude... i just wanted to comment about how much i really feel you on that. i really understand how the guilt of cutting is sometimes more painful than the wounds themeselves. and how that guilt haunts you and makes u wanna do it all over again until you feel so low... you dont even remember what the world is really like outside of your world. and that is it--- the coming out of my own private pain ward i had confined myself by cutting... i realized that all the things i worried about most-- that would happen if i couldnt cut... how terrible i imagined i would be if i didnt have that outlet...and justified my actions with the fact that i could be doing much worse to myself or that others should be happy that i\'m hurting myself and not them....
dude... i was sooo there... i really wanna help you.. let me know how i can...
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omigod... when i read this... i was immediately taken back... to myself a year ago.
dude... i just wanted to comment about how much i really feel you on that. i really understand how the guilt of cutting is sometimes more painful than the wounds themeselves. and how that guilt haunts you and makes u wanna do it all over again until you feel so low... you dont even remember what the world is really like outside of your world. and that is it--- the coming out of my own private pain ward i had confined myself by cutting... i realized that all the things i worried about most-- that would happen if i couldnt cut... how terrible i imagined i would be if i didnt have that outlet...and justified my actions with the fact that i could be doing much worse to myself or that others should be happy that i\'m hurting myself and not them....
dude... i was sooo there... i really wanna help you.. let me know how i can...
-jude