it sucks that I can't always keep on top of things

it sucks that I can't always keep on top of my emotions and feelings - it makes me feel at a loss

and as I search for other work to do with my life I seem to be so way layed (sp?) and detoured

towards licking my wounds rather than seeking out work or following my interests. I am pretty good

at sussing out an orderliness to my life - and maybe I should look for work that will allow for some 'creative' 

or randomness that would be the infusion of my moods into it. But I think I need to look at this project of finding

work as any other project that I endeavor. From CHAOS to order - and slowly chip away at it. Everyone has to do it.

Whether suffering from illness or not. I heard a radio program talk about a man who was in Jail who then became

a law professor. Amazing! There's no limit to what we can achieve sometimes!! Maybe I should work in HR - I will google it - I like the idea of helping people with life goals, whether it's how a Monk or priest might guide someone, or be involved in life affirming benchmarks in life or maybe some other aspect of work like this.