It sucks being an unemployed 57 year old widow.

It sucks being an unemployed 57 year old widow trying to find a job and a csmm (christian soul mate man).  I have been unemployed since 2008 and a widow since Nov.15 2009.  Sunday and today were hard days for me.  I just cried big chunky tears this morning.  Life seems so unfair.  God seems to against me or even hates me.  Why?  Why?  Why?  Its all so unfair.  You see all these movie stars, rock stars and athletes on TV making so much money.  If I could sell J Lo's fur coasts, I could live for a few years quite nicely.  Life is so unfair.  I hybernated today and just stayed inside.  I have to do errands tomorrow which gets me out of the house.  It all sucks.
Just my thoughts and experiences from Diane B.