It's time

Hello
I'm new to this, it's been recommended to me by someone I love & trust very much.
My life's been hard and full of a lot of pain, loss, sorrow, rejection, control, abuse, fear & loneliness.
I have realized it is time to open 'Pandora's Box' and let out all the pain and despair so I can stand a chance of finding my hope at the bottom and move forward from my experiences & in to a future I am daring to dream thanks to my wonderful man (DH).
I'm scared, the process has started & I am waiting to have my initial phone appointment with the local IAPTs team, I can't let it get on top of me as I'm a parent, but equally I know I need to face this head on instead of letting a little seep out & shutting it away again ... It's time
To my dearest DH, Thank you