It's over 4 years
i feel like it's yesterday. I don't know how to go on. I think of you every day, every minute, every second of every day. It really sucks. I have never known this intense pain from anything else. I know my job isn't done yet but I want it to be. I miss you so badly. I love you so much. I miss your touch. I miss holding you. I miss it all. I know I'll never have you again and that's what makes me the saddest. Life is cruel.
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Jeff I really feel for you. It's over 2.5 years for me and while I'm coping lots better it's still very raw very often. I'm sorry that I can't help but please know that I do care. Sandy
Hi Jeff, it wouldn't hurt so bad if the two of you had anything except perfect love. Count that as her gift to you to get you through until you too have finished your race. Remember my friend, perfect love conquers all ~~~ even this sucks ass ride. You're not alone. Your friend, Scottie
First Jeff sending a.big Canadian hug. Totally understand what you are expressing. Jeff as you probably know I am in a.very good place now. Everyone time frame is different. How did I get here. First I surrendered myself to God's will. Very hard to do. Now I wake up each day in in every situation try and ask what is God's will. I carry her in my heart wherever I go. I gave myself permission to live and experience joy again
What our spouses for us. I decided time on earth is very precious and I work to make every interaction and experience a positive one. The devil wants us to be broken and in despair. Our loved ones are with God. A place we hope to.be reunited with them some day. Jeff I totally remember the pain. Be gentle on yourself dear friend.
Thanks all I understand
Jeff kinda late on this, but I remember when you came here as I did. John left in april'12 and I found DS in Feb of 13, the longest nightmare I have had alone,and I have had quite a few.
Years and minutes get mixed up at times. I understand and can only offer hugs of support.
Just a little catch up, I have been in classes year round now for the last 3 years and have just a handful left to go on this stage. So often I get excited or upset by what I am learning. You know the need to burst through the door kind and share it.. but the house is quiet...
Jewell