It's not fair but I compare every man by Smokey!
It's not fair but I compare every man to Smokey. Smokey was the love of my life and my soul mate. It was not fair that my heart was taken from my body when Smokey died. I am dating Dave for four months now. It's not fair but I compare what Dave does or doesn't do to my Smokey. It is a horrible thing for me to do. It doesn't matter how long it has been or who I am dating but I will always do it - make the comparisons. When you have had the best in the world that God has given to me, you can't help make the comparisons. I wish I could stop doing it as it is not fair to Dave or any man in my life. I want to stop doing it but my mind has a thing of its own. It makes the comparisons all the time. Its tearing me up in side as no one can compare to my Smokey. He stands head above any crowd in the world. Every man absolutely fails in comparison. I wish I could stop. It's not fair to any man in my life. I still miss Smokey so very much. I wish he were here but alas he is not.
Today I am home with the cold, cough and flu. I feel absolutely rotten. I still went for my job interview. I thought it went well for a 3 month temp job. We shall see. I told Dave I was still sick and decided to stay home alone. Usually Dave picks me up after his work. He always cooks dinner, watch TV and go to bed. Dave drops me off at home in morning on his way to work. Its working for us so far. I have to take care of myself and my own health.
All the best to everyone and thank you for being here for me, which I grealty appreciate and your hugs & opinions as well from Diane B.
Today I am home with the cold, cough and flu. I feel absolutely rotten. I still went for my job interview. I thought it went well for a 3 month temp job. We shall see. I told Dave I was still sick and decided to stay home alone. Usually Dave picks me up after his work. He always cooks dinner, watch TV and go to bed. Dave drops me off at home in morning on his way to work. Its working for us so far. I have to take care of myself and my own health.
All the best to everyone and thank you for being here for me, which I grealty appreciate and your hugs & opinions as well from Diane B.
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Sorry you are ill, Diane! Your sadness may be related to being ill. I just got sick today. It hit me fast like a truck this morning. I got 7\" of snow yesterday and was planning to shovel this afternoon, but I just can\'t. Shaking chills, sleepy, abdominal cramps, aches, and my chest is starting to hurt. But no diarrhea or nausea...yet. I should be working on the computer - I was - but I saved the work I did for later. I might just curl up on the sofa and write today off. I am wearing leggings, socks, a turtle neck, a zippered fleece, my warm pile robe, a winter hat, and big fuzzy slippers...I am still cold! I started to cry earlier when I had those cramps. You are right, we do have to take care of ourselves. Everything else can wait. Hope you feel better soon.
Hugs, Patti
I\'ve been a widow over 2 years now and haven\'t been on the first date. I am really afraid of what you are experiencing. I was with my husband from the time I was 16 and wouldn\'t even know how to be with another man. I hope things get better for you.