It's not fair..

It's not fair that such amazing, strong people with such bright future's have to die, while good-for-nothing people like me get to continue living... He has so much life left to live, so much to experience, he could have an amazing future..  But I have no future, no life, I'm a worthless, pathetic waste of space.. So why do I get to live,.but he doesn't??  I would take his place in a heartbeat if it meant he'd get better.. He deserves life more than I do.. I just don't even want to be in a world without him in it... Third person I will be losing. And two close family members soon also.. I just want to disappear.. Can't do this anymore..