it's gonna be a very bad night

why is the point to my existence anymore? I can't stop crying because I'm always second best for people and I'm sick of being suicidal all of the time. I want it to stop. no one gets how I feel, no one listens, and I'm tired of living for nothing. I'm tired of being on my own because anybody with any decency won't give me a chance and I'm fed up of me as a whole.

I am done with my life. I don't wanna be here any more!