it's been five days.
we can think all we want. think we'll operate better by a certain time or date
i'm not better yet. out of it. crashed.
had all these plans. to sit here and write to each friend. catch up on all journals and hugs. now it's just out there waiting with a tiny ray of hope.
yesterday i did some good things. scheduled the mri, the mammogram and the colonoscopy consult. and i spoke with my insurance co to get info on better rates for meds. the young lady and i were having trouble communicating.......but i got enough to go forward on. i have overspent on meds for the past several years. gone into credit card debt over it. missed how and what i should have been doing to keep costs under control. i am more confused than i realize a great deal of the time.
also incurrred a lot of credit card debt due to previous dental work this year and now this bridge coming soon from dental world. debt makes me so uncomfortable.
by the time i got off the phone i was a puddle of pain and misery. teary and frustrated and feeling so stupid. why didn't i ask theses questions sooner?
too tired to cry today. just wanted to apologise for my absence as a good friend. i'm crashed.....sitting up is taking more energy than i have........but i was feeling so alone back there in my room.
sorry.......good days will come again. that is a belief that i must hold.......based on faith. based on need. based on hope.
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Yes, let's have faith together. A better day will come. Hope will rise. I pray you emerge from this crash soon. Much love.
These extra difficult times will pass dearest Ruthie. Try not to worry . I'm feeling for you. I'm crashed too . I've been to the ER twice in the last week.I can't eat and I'm extremely weak. I have severe viral Laryngitis from a heavy flu. I'm living on painkillers and sucking on ice cubes constantly. I have lost my voice also. Can't cry because it hurts my throat too much. So what a great pair we are hey. In the wars together. No singing and dancing for us right now. Hang in there my friend.Things will change. Better days are coming..they're just around the bend. Can you feel my big heart hug? xoxoxo
I'm sad to hear how much you are having to deal with regarding medical/dental bills and debt. I am in the same place right now - we are swamped with credit card debt - mainly from dental bills and vet bills. I feel nervous about it, but what can I do? Don't be too hard on yourself - we cope day to day, and everything isn't always clear too us. You finally had the strength to try to take on the task of finding cheaper meds - hopefully things will ease up a little for you with costs. I don't know if your credit card payments are too high - but the credit card companies are usually willing to negotiate a smaller monthly fee if you can't keep up.
Sending you lots of sparrow love. Don't worry about keeping up right now. We your friends understand. I don't keep up with my friends here too like I use to.
I think You are doing the Best you can . Not your fault that everything is soooo complicated! and expensive. To me what's important is all that you accomplish in-spite of all those obstacles,none of which is your fault or doing.
I hope you get your medicines expenses reduced. that your appointments go smooth.
Rest Ruthie. ♥ and greenies