It's been a while

It's been a while since I've been on here. First of all I forgot my login, that took me a while to remember. I had gone back to work some time ago and recently just couldn't handle it anymore. I will never again work for a company that does not accomodate disabled people. I am still struggling with the bipolar depression, I have recently been diagnosed with having 5 bulged disks and sciatica. My doc is sending me to different surgeons for a second opinion. If they want me to go back to work then they need to unbulge some of these disks as it is just becomes too painful for my arms and upper back. I can't even fold a load of laundry or do a sink of dishes without being in so much pain. The meds are not helping and I don't think my other half really understands. I am taking 900mg of gabapentin and 100mg of tramadol a day for pain....yeah right eh! T4 works better. At this point I feel I am going to have to apply for disability which takes at least 6mos in order to be approved here. I know the medical team means well but for once I wish they'd listen on what needs to be done instead of try this and try that. I am done with trying this and that. It's not my fault that I am medication resistant. I hope everyone else is having better luck than me.