It's been a very very long month!

Well, I'm all moved in to my new place. I'm , suffering from the move so small, and the trains no one told me that you feel and hear the trains 7-10 times a day. I'd like to say that it's been easy, but it hasn't. X showed up the day before my Estate Sale and got fall down drunk and all his buddies showed up also drunk, it was really sad, a bunch of middle aged men none that was in a healhty relationship or happy ,I called it the Bitter mens club. I was the target that night, I hugged my X before I left and Thanked him for reminding me why I wasn't with him any longer. What a bunch of losers. Trying to adjust, and now X says he can't pay support, he's lost his job. What the f__K, he signed papers knowing full well what was going on, Now I'm left with rent while he squats in the house rent free, I moved out of because he was losing it.. He's living rent free, but mind you he's got the top of the line cable and internet services. He actually stole a lawn mower from me, he gave it to his buddy, he knew that I had sold it for $100.00 bucks that weekend. Okay, then on Wed the 16th I think, I wrecked my car on the freeway, on the way to a new job, so guess whos not getting the job!!! Had surgery Thursday very large Polyps in my colon, yes, they were taken out rectally so I'm walking around with a pain pump on. LIFE SUCKS,,,,,as for my Basal cell they found it in 3 more places, but as of the end of this month I wont' have any health insurance..YES LIFE REALLY DOES SUCK...My 16 yr old son is acting out like theres no tommorrow.. LIFE REALLY REALLY DOES SUCK.. I NEED A BIG CAVE THAT I CAN GO HIDE AND LIVE IN FOR  A VERY VERY LONG TIME... HAVE TO SAY THIS IS THE FIRST TIME IN SUCH A LONG TIME THAT I HAVE LET MYSELF FEEL, JUST SO BUSY TRYING TO NOT FEEL...